hmmm

just noticed that all the girls have noses that are fairly similar. For the most part anyways. None of them have flat noses like mine.

I'm clearly proud of my aryan heritage...somewhere deep inside I hate those damned flat nosers that are ruining the economy.

when will I stop denying my people?

hmm needs work

I'm drowning in a sea of white
the page just sits there reflecting the light
and slowly ravaging my eyes
blind to the answers; I only see the why's

There's no reason to feel so destroyed
I've got my health and, hell, I'm employed
Just enough to wet my whistle
drink so I can't feel

I never wanna be
like him
I never want to play
his games
but from behind
we already look the same

just please, please
believe in me

I can't see through this sea of black
I look down and the words look back
the words fly out from this pen
Creating a museum display of all my past sins

All of my feelings remain
I'm no different but I'm not the same.
New thoughts come into view
but they quickly become skewed
they retreat in a blur
I chase them but stumble to the floor

I cling to these letters
yet nothing feels better
they surround like a blanket
If you can't be happy...just fake it

it's awful...but there's something I like about it so I'm putting it here to save it

it whirls and crashes
you fight and thrash
but it takes you down
the fear has you on it's knee
you struggle to break free
but there's no way out
you don't think you can take it
but it wraps around you like a warm blanket
and you learn to love the warmth
the security blocks it all out

words are flying out
like endless rain into a paper cup
they slither while they pass
they slip away across the universe
pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
possessing and caressing me

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world

images of broken light
which dance before me like a million eyes
and call me on and on
across the universe
thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letterbox
they stumble blindly as they make their way
across the universe

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world

sounds of laughter shade my life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on
across the universe

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world

don't know why I posted these lyrics...just felt sort of necessary for some reason. I don't really like the beatles...but I have a lot of respect for them and their contribution to music. Just read the lyrics and put on your favorite version of the song...whether it be the beatles themselves or rufus wainwright, fiona apple, or (god help you) the movie version.

I hope you're all well.