Well in 3 hours I've gotta "get up" and go to the hospital. Yes, on a saturday I'll be going somewhere at 9 am. Work gets on my nerves. But whatever--gotta do it if I want to stay past this month and I promised myself no decisions yet. That I'd try not to make one right now anyways. So I've gotta go get tested and all that. Let's hope I don't have Aids. Pretty sure I'm alright, but still...won't relax till I hear the test results. And I stick by that that'd be the worst way to find out--while in a foreign country--then told you're visa is denied and you're fired. Be pretty rough. Had a movie day at school today. I started to draw a mural on one of the chalkboards but couldn't really think of much to draw--besides these students kept coming in and adding to it. I finally gave up when some of taylor's students drew on one of my drawings. They were kids so didn't really say anything. But that also may be why I don't like kids.
Wonder what other tests they wanna do? I know drug tests and all that. Which, unless that health bar I had had poppy seeds in it, I should be clean. Hopefully that's about it--and I'll try and ask about my lump. I think it got bigger..not sure.
Well I figured it and I've lost about 20 lbs since I've been here. They should weigh me again tomorrow so I'll know a more accurate number--I'll be sure to post it. Depressing, I was in good shape when I left, but with the hours I work and the shittiness of the gym here I just can't get myself to go. Besides they always stare at me when I'm there. Back is starting to hurt from losing so much weight...most of which being muscle I'm sure. Skinniest I've been in a long time. On the plus side some pants I brought that didn't fit when I came here fit now. I had worn them unbuttoned the first time I wore them. Now they're baggy. Bad thing being that all my clothes are baggy. Pretty easy to lose weight here since I don't really like korean food. The only american style food they have is usually junk food. Although I might try to go to a subway tomorrow. It's pretty far but totally worth it. Besides I might be going to the gameboard cafe tomorrow. Pretty cool right? Just pay for how long you're there and they let you play various games. We played monopoly last time. It was pretty cool.
speaking words of wisdom: let it be
Still can't decide for sure what I want to do. Mainly because today was a good day and the boss has been kissing my ass. they're incredibly shorthanded so he's been very complimentary. So everyone is being nice and I got to just fart around and talk to beave. Skip all the classes I don't like and didn't have to teach on my longest day. Realized today that I really think I could finish this contract--but I still think my mental and physical health will be shot to shit. I don't want to say I'm sad--but I'm not happy here anymore. Things are starting to wear on me and I feel like if I get out now it'll be for the best. Just a matter of when. I have a choice between two different months and I can't decide. Beave encourages for the later one. We'll see. Probably will be that one. I could use the extra cash when I get back home--and seeing as how the job market is supposed to be tight I'll be happy I stayed that extra month.
Well I'm trying to post a lot--semi daily if I can so that I can remember stuff better. Memory is fading faster and faster it seems like. I'll keep everyone updated on my decision and whatnot.
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