Too Young

Went to the Lucky Strike tonight. Not my favorite bar because it is mostly Kreans. Many of them speak english though and the drinks are some of the best. Pretty mellow bar with music that isn't overly demanding. I just prefer to be in a more crowded bar. Honestly my dream bar is one with a lot of people and a nook that I can sit in and just watch. I don't want the music to be too loud. Loud enough so that people can dance, but not so loud that I can't hear anything. I was in a drawing mood so I sketched the bar then drew something from a quote that Curtis gave me (he wanted the drawing so I gave it to him...actually one of my best, but I'd rather he have it) and then I drew some other crap and one drawing I gave to a bartender that he staple gunned to the ceiling. Never had something hung up in a bar...a restaurant yes, but it's a first for a bar. Tonight was a good night overall. The day wasn't great...I'm still pretty depressed, but good nights like tonight help me a lot. One bad thing being that they really make me realize that once Curtis and Taylor leave...I definitely won't want to hang around. I'll be out like bell bottoms. Got told I look like Josh Hartnett twice tonight...well once was Josh Hartnett and the other was Josh Hartnetty...that's just krean english so that's how it goes. Haven't heard him in a while. Emily told me that most people who see me here think I look like an actor...makes me wish I was out doing that. I really don't have much to say. Just kind of decided I wanted to keep a more semi daily account of my time here. Might help me put more into perspective. uhh, I didn't go hiking as planned today--woke up too late so I just hung out and watched Batman...the cartoon ones from when I was a kid. Love that show. I think I'm going to find some music software to download so I can make some music when I'm bored. Thought it'd be fun. We'll see. Might be getting my tunes on krean radio...you never know. Yeah it won't happen. Be neat if it did though. Could be a krean superstar.

So what do I do now?

the phone call ended in such a way
that I wasn't sure just what to say
who to call
how to feel
won't someone tell me
is this even real
I'm such a mess
I'm such a wreck
I'm such a mess

is there some extra space
on your floor
next to your bed
and if you'll let me stay
I'll be there
cause in the nighttime
when you're sleeping
I'll be there to say
that I loved you
and I left you anyway

I was lost as a latchkey child
and I saw more than I could handle
left alone in the lonely aisle
left to stare into you

the phone call ended with drop me a line
I thought about it long and hard
so play me for a fool
even though I'm just a fool for you
I'll turn into a mess

and when the snow comes down
and covers up the ground
I'll see you for what you really are

play me for a fool
even though I'm just a fool for you
I'll turn into a mess

The Secret Handshake - Too Young

Pretty good song if you can find it.

No pictures on this post...if curtis posts any of the pictures of my sketches I'll put up the link.